Cried all night. Woke up feeling like an empty rain cloud. My heart hurts, I feel sad, I feel betrayed, I feel guilty.
I haven't been able to sleep much lately. I keep waking up in the middle of the night and have trouble going back to sleep, and when I do sleep I feel I sleep so lightly I can even find myself thinking "I am not really asleep", then I wake up around five or six in the morning and begin another panda eyed day.
To have a reputation, all those insecurities, knowing the right people, "being someone", wearing "the right things". I was not good enough to keep as a friend, and neither are you (based on the above).
"Lazy self indulgent girl who is driving herself crazy".
Master at doing something (everything), for nothing.
